i just realized that june is coming in about two weeks from today. summer is about to end and ill be going back to school. this fact makes me worried. it's not at all about not being able to enjoy summer cause believe me i get more adventure and action on a school day. actually since the vacation began i was already feeling uneasy about going back to school and now finding out that there's about two weeks left just makes me feel more worried. just thinking about school and the realities i know im coming back to races my heartbeat and makes me nauseous. im actually feeling a wee bit light headed right now so ill be making this post quick.
so exactly why am i worried? where is this anxiety coming from?
i think there's mainly 3 factors:
1. this incoming school year will be my thesis year, my hoping to be final and graduating year. so this is more like a test anxiety. im afraid to fail my thesis and not be able to graduate on time. i already failed an important subject once so i know how much it sucks to be trailing behind. good thing i was allowed to take in 31 units or else i would have been delayed for a year. that was tough and i would never want to go through that again. i want to graduate on time along with the rest of my classmates and friends.
2. my parents! they have been really tough on me during the last semester which is quite unusual. ive been having a hard time with my parents because they all of a sudden started to put pressure on me with regards to graduating. i believe the extra pressure is mainly coming from their frustrations over my two older brothers that loves college so much that its taking forever for them to graduate. im afraid that i wont be able to handle the pressure or any tension with my parents. i cant afford to have any troubles with my parents cause it will only mess me up and distract me from my studies.
3. i cant tell you the third factor. it's top secret hehe. let's just say that this is a wildcard. i dont really know when or how, but im very worried it might complicate no. 1. this whole uncertainty makes me more worried.
these are the 3 probable cause of danger coming my way this coming school year. i can only hope and pray for the best. haaay!
17 comments:
1. oh my i miss school, and i miss my thesis days, yung mga overnite sa laboratory, nagtetest kami ng samples while watching porn (Str8) and the never ending remark of my friend "Chastity, Chastity...) i miss those terribly... Friends, cramming, crushes... hayy nakakamiss ang school.
2. normal lnag naman sa isang parent kasi dey want wat is the best for you, and the best is beyond the school pa, malapit na ang goal dont worry, all you have to do is persevere and believe... ;)
3. yung point 3 ba e lovelife... ehehehe...
;)
Prayers are the best weapon... God Bless You
mamimiss mo ang tension sa school kapag nasa work ka na kaya enjoy lang kasi tuloy ang ligaya. keep yourself focused on studies. mag manage ng time for review at bawasan ang panunuod ng porn sa 18 hours a day lang>LOL!
kaya mo yan. lahat tayu ay dapat pagdaan ang anxiety at pressure ng school. make the most out of it!!
enjoy it while it lasts. grabe miss ko na tuloy ang school.haay
Lahat tayo dumadaan sa ganyan. To tell you the truth, nung last year ko sa college, what I did was rub elbows with the prof while dedicating everything to hard work and perseverance. It worked.
Remember, minsan lang tayo maging estudyante. Do not burden yourself with things, that will deny you to enjoy your last year in college.
Kaya mo yan. I suggest that you blog about your journey so you won't lose your way. That's what I do all the time.
@mink, uu im gonna miss ung mga "sleepovers" na walang sleep, friends at cramming!
im really trying my best na intindihin parents ko. pero baka lalo ako di makagrad sa ginagawa nila! buti sana kung pangit performance ko sa school! haay
#3 is not lovelife haha di ko lang talaga pwd sabihin kasi controversial hahahaha
@natnat, sobrang ineenjoy ko talaga! tnx for the encouragement!
@kuya joms, uu nga blogging helps a lot! with blogging i somehow manage to organize my thoughts na sobra gulo. marami salamat!
elo. just droppin by.
parehas kau ng problema ng kuya ko... sa 1 at 2.. hehe.
madugong thesis.. tsk tsk.
just be positive. huwag ka lang hayaan unahan ng takot. =D
marami salamat negi!
trying my best to be positive. yun na rin ang ayaw ko mangyari, ang maunahan ng takot. tnx!
nakakatakot nga ang thesis, pero makakayanan mo rin yan. sipag, tiyaga at inspirasyon lang katapat niyan. gudlak gudlak!
@alipin, salamat!!! im gonna give it my best tlaga!
lemme guess. you are getting married?
or
going abroad?
or
have a steamy sex with hot prof?
@ chase, hahaha no im not getting married nor am i going abroad. ive had steamy sex with a hot prof but that still aint number 3! (bad wolf is a prof from a diff university)
payo ko lang kasi yan ang nararamdaman ko as of the moment. don't over analyzed things... then everything would just fall into its respective places.
btw, i appreciate your comment, seriously. thanks!
i bet you will conquer it all, in due time i will extend my congratulations through a post.. :)
ill count on ur success...
you can do it.!
xoxo
pressure..pressure ka dyan!!
neng matatalino tayo noh..kasama yan traits ng pagiging green bloodied natin...kaya kaya mo yan..
start early..paunti unti mong gawin din it will just tie up in the end..don't do it towards the end na super cramming ka...very stressful!! i've done three thesis neng!!kaya mo yan!! hold muna lahat ng kalandian..chos!
@kiss the bitch, haha tnx! oxxx
@rik32miles, hahahaha neng hahaha marami salamat. syempre matalino talaga tayo hehe uu tama unti unti ko gagawin... pero wag naman lahat ng kalandian hehe pramis babawasan ko kalandian.
okay lang maging anxious.. certain amount of stress.. just ask for help when things become clear as mud..
Haaay naku... sa totoo lang pag nagttrabaho ka na, you'll miss school so much (at least I did). I wanted to go back to school even for full time (to get my Doctorate), but i can't even get myself to be enrolled for MS sa sobrang toxic. haaay.
As for parental problems (hehe) I've managed before to just filter their exaggerated exasperated fussing over my graduation. I've developed an of and on switch for my ear. But simply put, I guess I've just tried to understand that their brood is the extension of their collegiate frustrations, an immediate trophy as a parent (syempre ang saya me bawas sa gastos hehe) and an omnipotent achievement (graduation mo, graduation nila din) hehe.
In any case, kaya mo yan. Just enjoy college life. Pero don't forget to focus your goals. Yung love life na yan... second priority lang. Kund di nya maintindihan, problema na nya un. hehe. After grad, madami pa dyan magkandarapa sayo. hehe.
Oh eto, ha, iadvance ko na graduation congrats ko sayo. pag grumadweyt ka nga this school year, me premyo ka. hehe.
@dabo, medyo ok na, medyo nababawasan na ung anxiety haaay hehehe tnx
@toilet, hmmm nakakatakot lang kasi baka biglang mapundi ang on and off switch, may katarayan din kasi mommy ko... syempre nagmana ako hehehe sana di muna mapundi un switch hehe
tnx, syempre i will enjoy what's left of college, at kahit gaano ko ka-love ang college life ayaw ko naman mag-overstay no
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