I'm looking for nice girls who could pose as my girlfriend. As most of you know I'm living a double life: School boy sa umaga, gay lover naman pagkagat ng dilim. Thus the need for a "cover" ^^
Maybe at least for a month lang tapos at least 3 hangout dates with my friends ok na. hahaha Must be around 20-23 years old at syempre dapat mas maganda kaysa sakin. hehe
None of my friends know I'm gay. Although I guess some of them may have doubted or speculated about my sexuality at one point, but still nobody really knew for certain. And all of them know never pa ako nagka-gf, and they can't wait na magkaroon na ako gf.
This is just silly! Hilarious!
But seriously, I am starting to feel uncomfortable with the idea that my friends are speculating about my real identity. Lately kasi napapadalas na topic ang pagkabakla sa mga usapan namin ng mga friends ko. And the talk usually revolves around the debate on whether a certain friend of ours is gay or not. Eh kasi daw sobrang cute naman daw niya pero bakit walang girlfriend, pero palagi naman daw may kausap sa phone at hindi pala kwento so baka daw lalaki yung madalas kausap sa phone. At medyo maarte din daw kasi kumilos.
So everytime the topic is brought up I can't help to wonder: Ako kaya napag-uusapan din tulad nito behind my back?
Tumatahimik na lang ako or I don't say much kapag yun na ang usapan kahit na sa isip ko gustong-gusto ko na kontrahin bawat points and arguments nila. Baka isipin pa nila eh Im being overly defensive at ako pa ang lalong mapagdudahan.
At eto pa, the other day diretsahan akong tinanong ng isa kong friend kung bading daw ba ako!?! Kasi napansin lang daw niya eh kanina pa siya turo ng turo ng mga chicks na dumaan na type niya pero ako halos tahimik lang. Well di naman kami close so I lied and told him hindi ako bading. Baka magtampo pa yung mga close friends ko kung malaman nila na mas nauna pa ako umamin dun sa kanya. At kasi naman halos lahat na lang yata ng girls na dumaan eh type niya. Nagkakagusto rin naman ako sa girls pero mas may taste naman ako sa kanya at di ko rin ugali magkwento about sa mga natitipuhan ko na girls.
So, based on the arguments I have heard from my straight friends, I therefore conclude na most straight people would think one is not gay kapag may girlfriend. hehe so dapat magkaroon na ako gf or at least cover girl man lang hahaha!
23 comments:
That's why I don't believe that you judge a person by the way he acts... minsan...
dami kasi na natin PLU na very masculine at ang hirap kilatisin... ako pa naman, medyo sablay ang radar.
Hahahaha!
seriously may kakilala ko hehehe
Challenging yan Odin. Hehe. Hanap ka ng blogger na chick. :)
Hello po.. Pinakilala ka sakin ni Mugen. :) Hope to get to know you more.
@lukayo, uu nga, ang hirap mangilatis... minsan magugulat ka na lang PLU pala yun, minsan nakakagulat din na hindi pala hahaha
@turismoboi, seriously?
@kuya joms, haha may girl ba talaga kayang papayag sa ganun?
@bino/geno, hello! ganun hehe hope to get know you as well
usually ang mga straight people ang basic gage nila ay basketball at saka gf... worst case scenario is pag sinabuyan ka nila ng asin, at ikaw ay biglang nagkaroon ng kaliskis..or hasang or pakapak or kahit ano pang transformation hehe
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good luck sa paghahanap.. always remember.. the content of your character is more important as you live day to day..the same rule apply to your friends..
pero for now.. safe answer is study first kasi muna sabi ni dad..
or your waiting for someone to comeback, then silence, face darkened, you look as if you are about to cry.. o di ba mysterious..
hmmm... interesting. someting tells me its not a good idea...hmmm. but of course ikaw masusunod.
peace out! :)
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ahehe! at least di ba laging malinis nga paa natin. hehehe!
tingin ko di ka na kailangang magtago... although depende pa rin talaga yan sa circle of friends n a meron ka... but i think in a way meron na din silang hint at kahit malaman nila ang totoo it would not make nay difference...
ideal man sabihin pero i think it would turn out to be positibe anuman ang kahihinatnan ng kwentong ito...
isipin mo na lang yung commercial ng KFC...hehehe
@dabo, uu nga basketball at gf madalas naman yan..e grade 5 pa lang nag-stop na ako magbasketball, nagdadalaga na kasi ako nun, dyahe na maglaro.. hahahaha
@ron, anu ba syempre i was just kidding about the cover girl idea. i dont think i could pull off such an act hahaha pero gusto ko rin ma-experience having a gf
@ewik,hehe uu mukhang magiging ok lng naman sa mga friends ko if they found out... i think ill be ok naman no matter what happens. nakakatawa lang talaga ang mga nangyayari
magandang ideya yan. and while your at it, buntisin mo na rin ha ha
ninong ako
hay bakit kelangan pang itago?
kung friends mo tlga sila they'd accept you for who you are. malay mo isa pala sa kanila tulad natin! nyahaha...
saka daming complications pag may cover up.
kung ayaw mo nmn magopen sa kanila, then i guess youd have to act better. kaso ampangit nmn ng ganun diba?
i remember i was asked if i was gay by 3 different girls, i said no. they believed. *liar*
ha ha...
@abou, gooood idea! hahahaha dream ko rin magkaroon ng sariling anak na lalaki, the sooner the better
@LFTS, syempre I was just kidding about the cover up idea, as if i can successfully pull such an act di ba?!
well they'd better accept me for who i am!!! tadyakan ko sila eh!!! hehe
natural lang naman ako kumilos eh, kahit may nakapansin na may kembot daw ako maglakad kembot pa rin ako!
lotsa girls are so clueless talaga sa ganyan. hehehe
hahaha. text mo si sabadee... papayag yun! ahihihihi :p
Mag aapply sana ako kaya lang parang underqualified ako. I mean, underage. Hahaha
nakow ito ang mga "freeze the moment" na mga eksena. kapag tinanong na ako ng ganyan, either gusto kong magevaporate or magstop ang time. hirap yan, focus ka muna sa studies. sa girlfeiend naman, nakow, goodlick sa paghahanap, dapat tibo din yung girl para may K factor. im starting to think bout getting a girlfriend too for my sexual fetishes to happen. yun lang!
Odin...you are funny :) You know, I see myself in your situation way back. I don't know what advice I can give you, because during that time- it was not the happiest time of my life...hiding and pretending.
But, to each its own, right?
Whatever makes you happy, do it. But, Im not sure how long you can keep this thing...Persist in what you know in your heart to be true.
Lastly, I read this a while back:
"Investigating an untrue thought will always lead you back to who you are. It hurts to believe you are other than who you are, to live any story other than happiness. If you put your hand into the fire, does anyone have to tell you to move it? Do you have to decide? No: when your hand starts to burn, it moves. You don’t have to direct it; the hand moves itself. In the same way, once you understand, through inquiry, that an untrue thought causes suffering, you move away from it."
~kinesics
umasa ka, pinaguusapan ka rin nila. hahhaha
odinnn sabi ko sayo mag trinoma tayo, bili tayo chokoleyt cake tapos holding hands tayo diba? LOLLL.
odin... naun ko lang nabasa ito sa kadahilanang antagal kong hinanap blog link mo...
totoo ba ito?
madami ako rerecommend sayu...
hohoho.... expert na ku jan! lol.
jok.
jok.
dont bother lang naman eh,
there would come a time na kailangan mu din magsabi sa kanila for u to be comfortable.
for the mean timeeeeeee....
chillax...
drink coffee...
enjoy the sembreak...
naman...
there's more to life than worrying about that. ker ba nila.
and if they are real friends.
talking behind ur back would not be an option for u to think of.
world peace.
musta odin. sana welcome ako dito.
@on topic
bigla kong naalala yung blog entry ni mugen sa pag-amin niya sa berks niya. kung totoong kaibigan ka talaga nila - hindi ka nila titingnan kung ano ka pa. mas importante ang malalim na samahan niyo nang ilang taon kesa anu pa man. ^^; iyon nga lang it's worth taking risk kasi hindi mo alam ang reaction nila either reject or accept. mahirap talaga dinadaanan nating situation lalo na't tago. nde mamatay matay ang speculation about ur sexuality.
wag ka na maghanap ng GF
baka she would fall for u
kawawa naman..
it would be unfair for her
makakasakit ka lang ng tao..
Naku, 'wag na manggamit ng babae as covergirl. Baka in the end tragedy lang ang kalabasan. It happened to me once.
'Yaan mo na kung ano isipin ng iba. You don't have to live a lie for their own comfort. Kasi, in the end, after your graduation, kanya-kanya na kayo ng buhay. Hindi mo naman makakasama friends mo forever. Hindi mo naman sila aasawahin.
winner talaga kayo! hehe panalo ang mga advices hehe
again, joke lang naman ang cover girl idea, di ko kya gawin yun.
and tama kayo, chillax na lang muna me... bahala sila manghula. isang sem na lang naman graduate na kami, di ko na makita pagmumukha ng karamihan sa kanila hehe
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